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Excruciating!!!!

Writing Assignment brought to us by MamaKat (follow the link in my side column…haven’t figured out how to put it right in here yet!)

This weeks writing seems really hard to me! I was given a list of words and had to choose which one stood out to me more…

1.) Simple.
2.) Angsty.
3.) Excruciating.
4.)Enchanted.
5.) Bold.

First I thought simple…Whew, wouldn’t I love a simple life! Then enchanted…my love seems that magical! But the excruciating pain I have experienced in the last 6 months stood out the most!

Backtracking now… In 1996, I was involved in a pretty yucky car accident and had left shoulder pain since that time! Doctor’s never could provide me with any answers! I finally went to a pain management doctor who did more testing and come to find out that because of all the inflammation in my joint, I now had the joint of a 65 year old. Okay so that still does nothing for me or the pain. After years of treatments that seem to just mask the pain, I went to a different Orthopedic (in 2006) and he did some more testing and found that I had wore away part of my rotator cuff. I decided that I would proceed with surgery! I had no clue what I was getting myself into! They should have group before this type of surgery to explain ALL the pain you will experience and all the daily activities of normal living that you would NOT be able to do after the surgery! I could not pull my own pants up, wash my hair, shave and the list could go on and on! I was blessed to be a part of a family that was very helpful and I never went without and had all the help I needed during this time!

Okay, Okay….Fast forward to 2009! I became pregnant with my lil man! I was having more and more pain in my shoulder but didn’t bother talking to a doctor about it cause I knew there wasn’t anything that they could do! After having Aiden, I was breastfeeding so still no reason to  see any doctor…again nothing that they could do! At about 6 months my lil man started to wean himself :`( so I decided I would followup with a orthopedic in my new town. Yeah, the pain was worse and worse but I just thought it was nothing different than it had been over the last 14 years!  The doctoer ordered a special MRI, where I had to have dye injected directly into my joint prior to the MRI so that they could differentiate between scaring (from my previous surgery) and new injury. Got that done…Still hurting but I thought I just needed a cortisone injection and then I could go about my business for another couple years…LOL

It was a beautiful day in June…I was sitting at my desk at work when along came my orthopedic doctor…

Me: Hello Dr., How are you?

Him: Good, Did you get your results yet?

Me: Yes, I got the results and disc to bring to your office on Monday.

Him: Let me see the disc and I will give you your results right now!

So, I think awesome. I can be done with all this bother, get my shot and move on!

A few minutes later walks up my doc…

Him: Hmmm, Have you ever been told that you dislocated your shoulder?

Me: NO, Wouldn’t that hurt a LOT?!?!?!

So it seems that at some point I had dislocated my shoulder, tore my capsule and when the joint went back in to the socket, it went in all wonky. I had 2 fluid pockets on either side of the torn capsule.

I thought….When the hell did this happen?!?!?!?! You know on t.v. (lol), they show people with dislocated shoulder with the arm dangling all low and then screaming in excruciating pain as it gets put back into place!

So, I tell the doctor…No surgery for me and he proceeds to inform me that not having surgery is not an option!

WHAT??????? I went through that pain once and was not in the mood to deal with that again. Not to mention that now I have a 6mth old to care for. I was not ready to wean my baby completely and now your telling me I have to! UGH!!!!!

So I think I can hold out through the end of summer (yes, with my shoulder dislocated) until I had my surgery…That was a funny joke! Did I mention that I lift 10lb charts up and down all down from shelf to shelf for my work (at that time). I lasted 2wks before my boss told me not to come back to work until after I got my shoulder fixed. I can remember days where I would lift up the chart (thinking that all was good) only to feel my shoulder pop back out of place. This started to become a daily struggle and it was the most excruciating pain I had ever been in. Down to the core pain, that’s what I felt!

I had the surgery this past June and it was a painful experience but I made it through all the pain and misery and now I am working towards regaining my strength and praying that I will never experience that sort of excruciating pain again and would not wish that pain on anyone!!!!

July 2010


Writing Assignment: I am praying for…

The prompt:

1.) Somebody I’m praying for….

Thanks MamaKatfor the assignment…And I chose to accept it!!!!

His name is Junior, at least to all of us close to him. He is a brilliant 5 year old little boy. His has an amazing supermom that I am lucky to have as a cousin. He has been ill for almost 3 months on and off and just doesn’t seem to be getting better. The doctors are perplexed with his signs and symptoms and don’t seem to be putting the big picture together until Tuesday his fever spiked and his white blood cells spiked to very high numbers. He was sent to the hospital to be admitted.

This is all the more terrifying because a few years ago my cousin’s daughter was diagnosed with a brain tumor that originated from her ear. It ended up (after complete removal this last year being a benign tumor called a Schwannoma). They said that this did not necessarily mean that her other child would have the same thing, but they did testing back then to rule any out. His testing came back negative!

Tuesday, my cousin took her son to the doctor and there they advised her that they wanted to admit him and rule out a tumor (once again) or a blood condition like Leukemia….

His CT scan was done immediately, which came back negative for any tumors which is such a blessing. Also his testing for Leukemia was negative!!!! Yeah, but still Junior was sick.

Today, the doctor told her that they thought he had an autoimmune disease. They are going to refer him to an infectious disease doctor for follow up.

I am praying for his recovery and praying for the doctor’ ability to discover what is attacking his young body.


Scared Now….

So, I don’t know where exactly to start. I am feeling scared…

Well, I wasn’t trying to get pregnant and honestly we did not want to have another baby. Rafael was actually going to meet with a doctor regarding a vasectomy this Tuesday. Then this happens and I find out that I am pregnant…

The OB/GYN came in to see me today and explained some stuff a little more. She told me that only 50% of pregnancies make it without miscarriage. I could feel my heart in my throat…I wanted to cry. She said that having a bout of pancreatitis in the beginning of this pregnancy adds a lot of complications and that if I continue to have problems/flare-ups that I may have to consider terminating the pregnancy to get treatment. WHAT????? I just wouldn’t do that!!!! I am sick in my stomach now from a new thought. Also, that I am more prone to having a miscarriage…OMG!!! I have never been through anything like that and I can’t imagine doing so. I know that I need to stay strong and try not to stress, but it is hard.

They are going to continue testing the pregnancy levels in my blood and also my progesterone levels. She said if my progesterone levels are high and stay that way then it is probably going to be a viable pregnancy. They will also continue with ultrasounds and would like me to follow with them when I am discharged.

She doesn’t know how long they will keep me here….UGH!!! She said that the medical doc’s like to keep pancreas patients here a while….Dang this teaching hospital!!! LOL

Please continue to pray for me and now our baby needs all your prayers too…


Jello….That’s it for you!!!!

Well, here is the update for today….

I waited most of the day to have the ERCP, which would check to see if my Common Bile Duct is functioning properly and to make sure there is not a stone obstructing it. Still nothing to eat or drink….until after the test (as long as the test comes back okay!).

1pm…The transporter (I swear he was my son’s age…if it wasn’t a school day!!! LOL) came to pick me up and take me to Endoscopy to prep for my test. They got me all hooked up, I.V. fluids running, ready to go! I talked to the anesthesiologist and was soooo happy to find out that I would be going to sleep for my test by IV anesthesia (not conscious sedation). I really didn’t want to know about the process!!! I signed my consents and then the doctor finally got there! I got wheeled into the procedure room…got on the table and eventually they were ready to put me under =-)

About 3pm…I woke up and thought gee that was quick and my throat didn’t even hurt….WOW!!!! Then the nurse informed that they had to cancel it due to the probability that I WAS pregnant. This whole yes, no, yes thing is crazy!!! Turns out that because the first pregnancy test showed that I would have been very, very early on in a pregnancy and then they did a different type of pregnancy test the second time (one that shows just yes or no). The OB doc explained that the original test should have been repeated to see if the numbers were rising and that it was highly likely that the 2nd test gave a false negative. And then when they looked into the ultrasound I had on admission, it showed a sac in my uterus (which they could not say yes or no that it was a baby cause it was too early). So, add all this up and the GI doc did not feel comfortable going thru with the procedure…UGH! So, I am still not sure what caused the biliary pancreatitis and they stated that they hoped I didn’t have another attack while being pregnant.

By the way….My test numbers doubled since yesterday….So, I am pregnant! I don’t know a due date yet and from the numbers I haven’t been pregnant very long at all.

I still don’t know when I will get to go home. Soon, I hope. They started me on a liquid diet….EXACTLY 48 hours after the last time I had anything to eat or drink! I never enjoyed chicken broth, jello and italian ice soooo much ever in my life! It was the best dinner I had in, well, 2 days…LOL!!

Oh yeah, the one doctor said that it is possible that the pregnancy triggered the attack….I just hope another one doesn’t happen….

I will update more after I see docs again tomorrow.

Thank you for all your good thoughts and prayers!!!!


No Food or Water for You

It started at 5pm on Wednesday…. The pain, The agony!!!!

I ate dinner. It was so yummy going down. Pork Chops and Black Beans and Rice! Washed it all down with Diet Dr. Pepper.

Then, BAM!!!!!!, My stomach started hurting, REALLY BAD!!!!

I sat on the couch, nauseous and in pain! I am really good at NOT throwing up when I am nauseous. This worked last night for a couple of hours… I made it to the bedroom and thought the pain would subside while I laid down and watched t.v. This did work until 7pm. Then out of no where….The vomiting began and the pain was so intense (I am sure the upstairs neighbors could hear my cries!) Well, all I am going to say is that obviously none of my dinner had been digested!

Did I mention that my significant other was not home. He teaches and was at a class. UGH!!!! I must of text messaged him 100 times, trying to plead with him to pack up his stuff and come home.

At 9:30pm, this is after 2 1/2 hours of vomiting and increasing severe abdominal pain…I couldn’t take it anymore. Rafael was not going to be home for another hour. My body was completely soaked with sweat from the pain. I called 911. Which I felt like a moron calling them…I thought I should be able to wait for Rafael. The fire rescue got there within a few moments. Besides labor, I have never been in so much pain!

Off to the hospital we go…I didn’t realize how many bumps there were in the road!!!! I don’t know how long it took to get their. I just remember crying out in pain the whole way there…

I got into a room in the E.R. pretty much right away. I hate to wait for the doctor to receive any pain relief…. The doctor came in talked to me. Rafael had got to ER by this point. The doctor said we would start with taking all sorts of labs and go from there….

Tube after tube they drew my blood!!

What seemed like hours later, the nurse cam in to inform me that my liver enzymes were very, very high, that my white blood cells were also very high. And another kicker was that I had a “kinda” positive pregnancy test. They did a qualitative pregnancy test which came back with a result of 10…which is VERY, VERY LOW.

Okay, I am now freaking out!!!!! They said that I had pancreatitis (inflammation of my pancreas) and that would explain my high lipase level and high WBC’s. They still didn’t know why I had such a low level of pregnancy hormones in my blood. They ordered a vaginal ultrasound to see if they could tell if I was having an ectopic pregnancy…. The ultrasound got to my room and stated that there was NO WAY to see a fetus with that low of a number (it would have meant that, if pregnant, I was only pregnant for a few days.)

Now they still didn’t know why my pancreas was inflamed. The usual reasons are drinking (yes alcohol!) and gallstones. Well, I hated drank anything (since my GNO on Friday…got I hope it isn’t from that!!!!) And I had my gallbladder previously removed in 2007. So, we didn’t have any good answers at this time…What a horrible way to feel.

They told me that I would be definitely be admitted to the hospital…UGH!!!!! Now I get to wait the long wait until I get assigned a bed!

Well, the doctor explained to me that there was still a possibility for me to have gallstones, even though I did not have a gallbladder. He said, that it could have slipped out of my gallbladder before it was removed and that it took this long for it to obstruct something…. Who knows! All I want is to not be in anymore pain!!!

I made it to a room…I think it was 4 or 4:30 this morning. They gave me something for pain and nausea at 5 or 5:30am. I finally was able to sleep for a little bit. Rafael came back to the hospital (I made him go home and get some sleep before work…once we talked to the doctor) and spent some time with me before he went to work.

I met with my attending at 11:30am and she informed me that they would consult a OB/GYN (to confirm or not the pregnancy), a GI doctor(for the pancreatitis) and a Infectious Disease doctor(to make sure I was put on the proper antibiotics considering that I may be pregnant).

The OB/GYN doc came in first. She was very nice. She said that the level of 10 was sooooo very low that it could be a false positive. Ugh, we finally were okay with the fact that we were gonna have another baby. So, she ordered another blood test…and long story short…It was negative for pregnancy. So, I guess I am not pregnant. I am a little sad, even though that it is not the best possible thing that could have happened to us right now.

Next, the Infectious disease doctor came to see me (at this time we did not have the negative pregnancy test back yet). She was soooo nice. She explained the possibility of my body still producing gallstones, even without a gallbladder. She informed me that I was on the right antibiotics considering a pregnancy.

Then the GI doc came in. He was nice too. Said that they would do an ultrasound of my tummy to see if they saw any gallstones. He also informed me that I may need a ERCP. I can’t remember right now what that stands for, but essentially they are going to take a camera down my throat to go look at the area and see what is going on…

So, the ultrasound came back negative, so they want to proceed with the ERCP….Friday morning I will be able to have that done. Until then I have to continue with no food and drink until maybe after the testing….I just want something to drink. I am so thirsty!!!!!

Well, now I am allowed to have stuff for pain..Yippee! I have mixed feelings on that….

Please pray for my recovery….I need all the prayers I can get!!

I will update more tomorrow…Yeah, I have internet here and my guy brought me my laptop!!!