Today has been a really hard day. I checked my finances and realized that things just are not going good. I am not able to make ends meet. I am robbing peter to pay paul and it’s just not working anymore! I can’t pay the bills need to just sustain life, let alone pay the bills that I have acquired like credit cards, student loans, etc!!! If my mom wasn’t here to help me I don’t know where I would be right now. She helps me with gas and food because those items ARE not in my budget…they can’t be…I just don’t make enough money! I work full time at the doctor’s office, but it is just not enough! I started working at my church Saturday nights and Sunday mornings and WHENEVER they need me!!!!!!!!!! I tried BeautiControl, which was doing great at first. I sold a lot and everyone that buys something seems to love it, but people just don’t have the money right now and I am not one of those pushy salespeople!!!! I have even contemplated pawning all the diamonds that I do have that the ex bought me…But I am torn there too… I just don’t know what I am going to do!!!! I am contemplating getting a job somewhere that I can work during the week only but not too late…like Target or some other retail store. My mom said that I can come stay with them (if my dad says okay) but there isn’t really a lot of room there and IT MEANS MOVING BACK IN WITH MY DAD!!!!! LOL I would be able to save some money….BUT!!!!! UGH…….I just don’t know!
I will keep all updated… Please pray for me!