I talked to my roomie about having to possibly move out and go back with my parents and she told me that she really didn’t want me to move out if I didn’t have to….She said that she would work with me where ever she could. It is still a lot to think about because I do not want to take advantage of a good friend. I am still going to try to make extra money any way I can to keep up with my bills right now. I never heard from my mother about staying with them. My father probably is a bit stressed about the whole idea. My brother moved back in with them about 7 months ago to try and get back on his feet and all he seems to have done is enjoy himself…while living off of my parents…It upsets my dad. I know things would be different with me but I could see the frustration as a parent to have all your kids trying to move back in with you…even though temporary…LOL
Another, good thing happened. My roommate’s mother came over and I guess Yvette told her about my situation and she said that she would pay me to clean her house! I have done it in the past when they were on vacation, but was afraid to ask if she wanted me to do it on a regular basis. Her mom has Parkinson’s so it is harder for her to do the deep cleaning like she would like to have done. I am very excited about it. I don’t know how much she will pay me, but honestly anything at this point is a blessing and I know that she would never take advantage of me!
And later in the evening I got a call from a good friend wanting to know if I would watch her daughter starting this Saturday through late Wednesday night. Honestly my first reaction to this blessing was torn because I was supposed to take the kids to West Palm Beach to meet Rafael’s kids. But after the MINUTE that I allowed that thought to enter my head, I realized that I only had one answer….YES, YES, YES!!!!! I have nannied for my friend since her daughter was 2 years old and know she is 6. She is my daughter’s bestest friend. They have grown up together! We will have a great weekend. I will miss my man, but it will be for a good cause….And we decided that We will be able to get all of the kids together the following weekend and it will be okay!!!!
I feel so blessed. Whenever I doubt, Whenever I worry Jesus always takes care of me. It seemed so hopeless and I was having a hard time having faith, but in the darkness light shined through. He is constantly putting me in situations to prove to me that he will take care of me and I often wonder why I still struggle with “giving it up” 100%. I will continue to pray…to overcome my struggle with this…